Almost...

ALMOST. ALMOST WON RM100K. This is what happened:

Ong asked me to do her a favour by buying her some 4D and 6D number coz she'll be rushing to work that night. So she didn't have the time to stop by any TOTO shop and buy her number. I was thinking of getting myself a Mega 6/52 jackpot because i had this not so secret dream of being an instant millionaire. So instead of just dreaming about it, why no try my luck and buy some?

Anyways, back to the story. So being the "Good Samaritan" i am *ehem*ehem* i agreed to help her. I guess i was her good luck charm - no. Almost good luck charm because when I checked the newspaper this morning, this particular 6D number she wanted was out first prize!!! All of the numbers were there except for one tiny screw up. They were not in order. Gah!!! F*&***(^$%#$!@#@%#!!!!!! In order to win the prize money, all the numbers have to be exactly the same as the one posted in the newspaper. If she really did win that 1st prize which is worth RM100K i think she would just drive to my home straight and raid my room for the ticket coz she'll be so paranoid that i'll run away with the ticket.

The lesson that i learn here is; thou shalt continue buying 4D, 6D and Jackpot until thou win some cash. And if you need some luck, maybe you can ask me for help. Who knows you might be the next to win the Rm100K. Terms and conditions apply. *wink*

I need...

I seriously, desperately need to get myself some books to read. I'm bored of watching t.v and i feel like i need to exercise my brain. Plus, my English is getting kinda rusty. Need to go MPH. I am book deprived. Currently looking for some victims for me to drag to MPH. muahahahaha.

On another unrelated event, i have decided to give myself a break from all this anger, sadness, revenge kinda thing. I am no more a teenager and all this emotional shit is making me tired. Sigh. *Hope it's not a sign of aging la*. Anyway, I'll be focusing on what matters to me most:

1. My life and him :)
2. My very supportive, crazy and honest friends - i know it suck to hear me complaining but I'm very thankful to have you guys. *Will belanja u guys beer kay? And maybe we go makan-makan too*

So, my conclusion is, i do not wish to feel anything towards them anymore. I just hope for one thing - regret. Not bad luck, not bankruptcy, no curse that last 100 years old of being poor or having any illness...just regret.

Mental note to self: What goes around comes around. Don't seek for revenge. Just move on, be strong and focus on the being positive at all times. Good things will definitely come.

Your emotional roller coaster has got nothing to do with me.

Doesn't mean i act happy all the time means i am immature. Doesn't mean you act serious all the time you're much more mature than me. I'm not saying this because i am a year older than you. I'm saying this because there's more to life than treating people like as if you're a 100x better than they are. Sure thing, you have it all - a career, a car. Next you're gonna get yourself a house. But does that mean you have every right to give me your fucked up emotional roller coaster ride for free? I don't think so.

Doesn't mean i'm always there to support you and listen to your sorrows gives you all the right reason to do what you want. FYI, I'm not a punching bag. So you got hurt when i snapped back at you when you raised your voice at me. If you don't trust me, then don't follow me. How does it feel to get bitten back by me, huh? Like the taste? I sure hope so because that is the shit that i get from you everyday. So now you know a little bit of how i feel when you that to me. You bring me on your emotional roller coaster ride and said " I can't help it. I can't hide how i feel." Well baby, that shows how IMMATURE you are because you are dragging unrelated people into your own mess and hopes to have a chance to point your finger at them and blame them for all the shit that happened to you.

Everybody has the right to feel. But then again, do you think it's fair to me when you said - and i quote - " Nasib lah. Ko kan rapat ngan aku? So ko kena tempias lah." WTF??? Honey, I ain't a fool. And i haven't even "berkira" with you for all the silent treatments you gave me, for leaving me waiting for you for almost 1 hour everyday (don't think i don't know you go dating with him before picking me up) and for abandoning me JUST BECAUSE YOU HAD A SILLY FIGHT WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND.

I have a boyfriend too. FYI, it's been 4 years and we're still madly deeply in love with each other. We do have small fights but do you ever see me LETTING IT ALL GO ON YOU OR OTHER PEOPLE? No. You know why? Because it's all between me and him. I don't walk around town sulking just because HE DON'T KNOW HOW TO WIN MY HEART BACK ( not saying Mr. B don't know how. He knows. I was referring to HER boyfriend). Plus, we don't talk about breaking up every time we had a fight, unlike some "mature" people i know of.

So there, before you start raising your voice on me, acting all emotional again, i suggest you go stand in front of the mirror and lash it all out at yourself for being such an idiot. I don't need to list the reasons down. Pandei pandei lah sedar dirik since you're very MATURE konon tek.

Happy =D

Had a shitty day today. Been stressed out all day long trying to make the impossible possible. It was hard alright. Part two is coming up tomorrow. And yet, somehow, i can still feel very happy. I mean very very happy. Why am i feeling so high?


And oh, I'm addicted to Country music. Blame it on the True Blood series.

Some people just suck big time.

Question 1
If a kid screws up and lands in jail, should the parents get all the blame for not teaching the bastard some manners and moral lessons?

Answer: No.

Reason: No matter how many moral lessons you get everyday, exorsicm, prayers or blessings to change you into a better person, be it 24/7 - if you have already decided to be a moron, a moron you shall be. You are what you choose to be. So stop the blame game.

I rest my case.